It's becoming clearer by the minute that the person who wears the pants in our family is also the one who wears diapers underneath them...and we are totally okay with that! I can't imagine a life that isn't quantified by the sweet smell of baby skin (there's nothing better than that!), little grunting noises during his bottles, tons of cuddle time, and tiny hands and feet. I don't know how I survived so long without those wonders and I never want to go back! It's impossible to believe that little Mr. Thomas is already almost three months old, and it's even more unfathomable that, not too long ago, he wasn't yet in our lives. There's so much love in our hearts right now, we can't see straight!
Equally amazing is the discovery that Tom and I love each other even more, thanks to this pint-size human. Despite the sleep depravity and chaos, we are finding new ways to appreciate one another on a daily basis. It's inspiring on so many levels. I am cherishing every moment of being a mom - which is, by far, my favorite role to date!
Here is a list of some observations I've made during my short time as a mommy:
1. Staring at your own child is addicting.
2. Sometimes it takes twice as long to change a diaper as it does for it to be soiled again.
3. Whoever invented the wetness indicator on the aforementioned diapers is a genius.
4. People insist on informing you that every time your newborn smiles it's because he has "gas".
5. Everyone has an opinion on what you're doing wrong as a parent and think it's their job to point out what you could do better. Unless asked - please keep your opinions to yourself. Being a new parent is stressful enough without constantly thinking of all the things you're doing "wrong".
6. Laundry "day" is a thing of the past. The chore currently takes place with more frequency than I could have ever imagined. He can go through up to four outfits a day!
7. Regardless of how much space you have for photos and video on your computer or hard drive, I can assure you it's not enough. Though I am aware I can't document every single moment of Thomas's life, it doesn't seem to keep me from trying. I think there's a total of less than 10 days since he's been born that I didn't take at least one picture.
8. Sleeping for more than a few consecutive hours seems scandalous. I miss sleep the most, but wouldn't trade the early morning time with him for anything.
9. Cutting my babies fingernails for the first time was virtually equivalent to walking a high wire with no net. So scary!
10. There just aren't enough variations of the words "I love you" and "You're handsome" in the dictionary.
11. Seeing Tom being Thomas's daddy melts my heart in a way I never thought possible. He's a natural dad and I can't wait to watch their relationship grow as Thomas gets older.
I knew I would love being a mom, but I never knew exactly how deep that love would go. I can't wait to see how things keep changing in our lives over the next 18 years. We love you baby boy!
Tuesday, September 4, 2012
Tuesday, August 21, 2012
Photo Dump!
Not much has really changed since my last post, but now I have the pictures I couldn't figure out how to post last time. Enjoy!
Happy Boy!
Sitting up in his bumbo seat for the first time!
Enjoying his play gym - he loves "talking" to the animals.
He really loves his monkey!
He fell asleep sitting up - must have been a long day
This is our comparison - 2 weeks vs 10 weeks! He's growing up way too fast!!
Such a big boy sleeping in his own bed.
Happy Boy!
Sitting up in his bumbo seat for the first time!
Enjoying his play gym - he loves "talking" to the animals.
Sunday, August 12, 2012
2 months!
Baby Thomas is now two months old and I'm not quite sure how it happened so fast. We are so in love with this baby boy. The past two months have been the most amazing, yet exhausting months of my life, and I wouldn't trade these experiences for anything. I'll post some updated pictures soon!
At two months Thomas is:
Now wearing size 1 diapers (up from the newborn size)
Is eating 5 ounces of formula every four hours
Has outgrown most of his 0-3 months clothing
Has started smiling at me when I come home each day
Loves "watching" tv late at night with daddy
Loves music of any kind - especially the drums at church
Has outgrown his bassinet and now sleeps in his big boy crib
Thomas we love you and can't imagine our lives without you. All we ask is that you slow down with this growing up thing. Unless of course you'd like to start sleeping through the night.
At two months Thomas is:
Now wearing size 1 diapers (up from the newborn size)
Is eating 5 ounces of formula every four hours
Has outgrown most of his 0-3 months clothing
Has started smiling at me when I come home each day
Loves "watching" tv late at night with daddy
Loves music of any kind - especially the drums at church
Has outgrown his bassinet and now sleeps in his big boy crib
Thomas we love you and can't imagine our lives without you. All we ask is that you slow down with this growing up thing. Unless of course you'd like to start sleeping through the night.
Wednesday, June 6, 2012
Thoughts on the BIG day
Tonight at 9pm we will be admitted into the hospital to being the induction
process and hopefully our first born will be here sometime tomorrow.
There are so many thoughts running through my head right now that I figured the
best way to "handle them" was to write them out so I'd remember this
day forever.
I woke up an emotional mess this morning trying to go over every scenario and thing I thought needed done before tonight. Granted, there wasn't much on the list, but it was still overwhelming. Some of this emotional meltdown might have had something to do with the fact that I was awake until 2:30 and then wide awake for the day at 6:30. As I laid there watching Tom sleep I realized that this was the last morning we'd ever wake up in our bed without being parents. I started thinking about how I'd miss it being just us two, but then thought of how much we're going to love our little boy (even more so than we already do). After that minor meltdown I realized that Tom's birthday, our anniversary, and Tom's first father's day are all next weekend. I haven't planned ahead very well being on bed rest so of course I realized today that I need to pick up a few things so I'm prepared for next week in case I don't leave the house. *I hope he doesn't read this before next week, ha!*
Don't get me wrong; as much as I'm sad to close one chapter of our lives, I'm ecstatic to start the next chapter. A baby is something that Tom and I have both wanted and dreamed of since before we were married. I'm so glad we waited until ten years of marriage to have this baby. As much as I thought we were ready five or six years ago we definitely weren't. I think God knew that and kept us in situations that weren't ideal for having a baby.
I'm also thinking about how a year ago at this time we weren't even sure if we were able to have children due to the chemo that Tom was on ten years ago. I'm so grateful that everything worked out this way and that we are able to have a child of our own.
Huge occasions in our lives are usually filled with family by our sides. Unfortunately since we live at least 2,400 miles away from our families that makes this a little tough. Thankfully technology will allow us to "see" our families via Skype and face time. There's also Facebook so they will get to see I'm sure daily updates about our baby’s firsts. As much as I'm grateful that we have those things at our fingertips it would still be nice to be closer to family. This baby boy is already so loved by so many that I'm sure he'll feel the love no matter how far away they are.
Tom is going to be a great dad; this is something I've just known for as long as I've known him. He is so patient, kind, and loving, and that's just with me. I can only imagine how much love he will have for his little boy. One of the things I'm looking forward to most about tomorrow is seeing his face when he holds his son for the first time. It makes my heart melt just thinking about it.
As excited as I am about meeting our baby boy, there are a few nerves about the delivery process. I know it's not going to be easy, and people do it every day so I'll be fine. The only part that makes me nervous is the unknown and not knowing what to expect. But, like all things there will be an end in sight and once I see my little boy I'm sure it won't seem so bad. (At least I hope).
Writing out these thoughts has helped clear my head quite a bit. It's amazing how just getting things out somehow makes things seem not quite so overwhelming. I hope I get a chance to write about the birth experience sooner than later depending on how well we get adjusted once we're home from the hospital.
Hopefully by this time tomorrow he'll be almost here and I can squeeze his chubby cheeks and kiss the little toes that have been kicking me for months.
Thomas Daniel Brown III we love you and can't wait to meet you tomorrow!
I woke up an emotional mess this morning trying to go over every scenario and thing I thought needed done before tonight. Granted, there wasn't much on the list, but it was still overwhelming. Some of this emotional meltdown might have had something to do with the fact that I was awake until 2:30 and then wide awake for the day at 6:30. As I laid there watching Tom sleep I realized that this was the last morning we'd ever wake up in our bed without being parents. I started thinking about how I'd miss it being just us two, but then thought of how much we're going to love our little boy (even more so than we already do). After that minor meltdown I realized that Tom's birthday, our anniversary, and Tom's first father's day are all next weekend. I haven't planned ahead very well being on bed rest so of course I realized today that I need to pick up a few things so I'm prepared for next week in case I don't leave the house. *I hope he doesn't read this before next week, ha!*
Don't get me wrong; as much as I'm sad to close one chapter of our lives, I'm ecstatic to start the next chapter. A baby is something that Tom and I have both wanted and dreamed of since before we were married. I'm so glad we waited until ten years of marriage to have this baby. As much as I thought we were ready five or six years ago we definitely weren't. I think God knew that and kept us in situations that weren't ideal for having a baby.
I'm also thinking about how a year ago at this time we weren't even sure if we were able to have children due to the chemo that Tom was on ten years ago. I'm so grateful that everything worked out this way and that we are able to have a child of our own.
Huge occasions in our lives are usually filled with family by our sides. Unfortunately since we live at least 2,400 miles away from our families that makes this a little tough. Thankfully technology will allow us to "see" our families via Skype and face time. There's also Facebook so they will get to see I'm sure daily updates about our baby’s firsts. As much as I'm grateful that we have those things at our fingertips it would still be nice to be closer to family. This baby boy is already so loved by so many that I'm sure he'll feel the love no matter how far away they are.
Tom is going to be a great dad; this is something I've just known for as long as I've known him. He is so patient, kind, and loving, and that's just with me. I can only imagine how much love he will have for his little boy. One of the things I'm looking forward to most about tomorrow is seeing his face when he holds his son for the first time. It makes my heart melt just thinking about it.
As excited as I am about meeting our baby boy, there are a few nerves about the delivery process. I know it's not going to be easy, and people do it every day so I'll be fine. The only part that makes me nervous is the unknown and not knowing what to expect. But, like all things there will be an end in sight and once I see my little boy I'm sure it won't seem so bad. (At least I hope).
Writing out these thoughts has helped clear my head quite a bit. It's amazing how just getting things out somehow makes things seem not quite so overwhelming. I hope I get a chance to write about the birth experience sooner than later depending on how well we get adjusted once we're home from the hospital.
Hopefully by this time tomorrow he'll be almost here and I can squeeze his chubby cheeks and kiss the little toes that have been kicking me for months.
Thomas Daniel Brown III we love you and can't wait to meet you tomorrow!
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Perspective
Do you ever have days when you feel like nothing goes right? I've had a few days like that lately and when I put things into perspective I realize things are as bad as they seem. I'm sure some of these feelings comes from the fact that I haven't had a full nights sleep in close to a month. I'm not sure why that is other than my baby and body are getting me ready to be up for the middle of the night feedings.
When I have those feelings of sadness, anger, frustration and bitterness I am making it a goal to remember the following things:
- Even when it all falls apart I have a God that loves me and knows what is coming next.
- I know that I'm not alone and there's no reason to worry.
- I have an amazing husband that would do anything for me and/or this baby.
- In about seven little weeks I will have the biggest blessing that I've ever received in my arms.
So, if you see me and I am in one of those moods where things are tough or not going right - please pray for me that I will remember that things aren't so bad after all.
When I have those feelings of sadness, anger, frustration and bitterness I am making it a goal to remember the following things:
- Even when it all falls apart I have a God that loves me and knows what is coming next.
- I know that I'm not alone and there's no reason to worry.
- I have an amazing husband that would do anything for me and/or this baby.
- In about seven little weeks I will have the biggest blessing that I've ever received in my arms.
So, if you see me and I am in one of those moods where things are tough or not going right - please pray for me that I will remember that things aren't so bad after all.
Monday, April 2, 2012
When life gets hard...
Even when it hurts
Even when it's hard
Even when it all just falls apart
I will run to You
Cause I know that You are
Lover of my soul
Healer of my scars.
Even when it's hard
Even when it all just falls apart
I will run to You
Cause I know that You are
Lover of my soul
Healer of my scars.
Sunday, March 4, 2012
25 Weeks and an update!
As of this week, I am now 25 weeks pregnant! We're well over half way and I can't wait until June! I figured I should update on how things have been going so far in the pregnancy (since I'm a little behind).
The first three and a half months were tough. I barely kept any food down at any moment during the day. It was a constant battle to just keep water down, and at one point at the end of October I ended up in the emergency room due to severe dehydration. They almost kept me overnight, but I insisted I would drink tons of water that night. Thankfully that was the worst it got and I was quickly on my way to feeling better.
By November I was looking forward to Thanksgiving, as that's my favorite holiday. There's just something about spending the day with friends and/or family and knowing there's no expectations of gifts. This was also the day that we announced on Facebook that we were expecting. We were most thankful this year for our little baby that we had been praying for, years before he or she had even been conceived.
In December we found out that we were expecting a son - Thomas Daniel Brown III! I had been convinced from the beginning that we were having a girl, but was amazed at how excited I was to know we were having a son. Our son will be the first grandson on my side of the family, and the third grandson for Tom's side of the family. By the end of December, or around week 14 I finally started to get some relief on the all day sickness.
January brought our fifteen day vacation to visit Tom's family. How exciting it was to see them and see how excited they were about a new baby coming into the family. Also, on that vacation was the last time I was sick! Thank you Lord! We got to see our nephews Lukas and Simon and loved every minute with them. Seeing the rest of the family only makes me realize how much we miss them when we're away.
In February I started showing and that was exciting for me. Since I wasn't tiny to begin with when I got pregnant, it was kind of hard to tell until this point. And, I felt him kick for the first time this month!! What an amazing feeling!!! I had my monthly appointment at my OB's office on 2/22 and as of that point I had lost 18 pounds since I got pregnant. My doctor said she was only going to be concerned if my ultrasound on 2/29 showed that T3 (the nickname I picked out for him) wasn't growing as much as he should since I was losing weight. According to the ultrasound tech last week T3 weighed 1.5 pounds and was exactly where he should be for this point in the pregnancy. However, he is like his father and slightly stubborn and wouldn't cooperate with her, so we have to go see a specialist this Wed so she can measure his heart with better equipment. She insisted there was nothing to worry about, so I'm just looking forward to seeing him and hearing his heartbeat an extra time. Here are the pictures from last weeks ultrasound - and with that we should be caught up to this week. I'll post again after this weeks ultrasound after we know more about what is going on. :)
The first three and a half months were tough. I barely kept any food down at any moment during the day. It was a constant battle to just keep water down, and at one point at the end of October I ended up in the emergency room due to severe dehydration. They almost kept me overnight, but I insisted I would drink tons of water that night. Thankfully that was the worst it got and I was quickly on my way to feeling better.
By November I was looking forward to Thanksgiving, as that's my favorite holiday. There's just something about spending the day with friends and/or family and knowing there's no expectations of gifts. This was also the day that we announced on Facebook that we were expecting. We were most thankful this year for our little baby that we had been praying for, years before he or she had even been conceived.
In December we found out that we were expecting a son - Thomas Daniel Brown III! I had been convinced from the beginning that we were having a girl, but was amazed at how excited I was to know we were having a son. Our son will be the first grandson on my side of the family, and the third grandson for Tom's side of the family. By the end of December, or around week 14 I finally started to get some relief on the all day sickness.
January brought our fifteen day vacation to visit Tom's family. How exciting it was to see them and see how excited they were about a new baby coming into the family. Also, on that vacation was the last time I was sick! Thank you Lord! We got to see our nephews Lukas and Simon and loved every minute with them. Seeing the rest of the family only makes me realize how much we miss them when we're away.
In February I started showing and that was exciting for me. Since I wasn't tiny to begin with when I got pregnant, it was kind of hard to tell until this point. And, I felt him kick for the first time this month!! What an amazing feeling!!! I had my monthly appointment at my OB's office on 2/22 and as of that point I had lost 18 pounds since I got pregnant. My doctor said she was only going to be concerned if my ultrasound on 2/29 showed that T3 (the nickname I picked out for him) wasn't growing as much as he should since I was losing weight. According to the ultrasound tech last week T3 weighed 1.5 pounds and was exactly where he should be for this point in the pregnancy. However, he is like his father and slightly stubborn and wouldn't cooperate with her, so we have to go see a specialist this Wed so she can measure his heart with better equipment. She insisted there was nothing to worry about, so I'm just looking forward to seeing him and hearing his heartbeat an extra time. Here are the pictures from last weeks ultrasound - and with that we should be caught up to this week. I'll post again after this weeks ultrasound after we know more about what is going on. :)
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